Contemplating.. a near death experience

It's been a while since the last time I wrote on my blog and I can honestly say that I have a lot of things that I want to write about but just cannot find the time. Like the trip that we had a couple of days ago going to memphis to pick up the truck that my father in law use to have and now my husband step mother has finally decided to give it to him, as well as some other stuff (mostly the nascar car collections that my father in law had) after five(5) years... she decided to give it to him. Don't ask me the reason... we have no idea. But my husband was very happy about that. My little girl is actually loving the idea of riding with her dad in the truck. The other day when she rode in the truck with her dad, the moment she step inside the house she said "mommy, I was riding on my grandfather's truck..." I thought that was absolutely amazing... and then she was talking about it again when we used the truck to go to my sister's house last wednesday. We were talking about something and all of sudden she just said "this is my grandfather's truck..." I thought my husband is going to cry.

But I did saw him cry that day... wednesday. Wednesday was a weird day... the previous night I was just so sad that when I was in bed some weird stuff just keep playing in my mind over and over again... and I was crying... my husband woke up and ask me why I was crying and I just didn't answer. I thought the things that I was crying about was just nonsense things... It was one of those nights that I feel homesick and silly things like does my husband really know the real me thing... It was awful...

So I was contemplating a lot of things lately... after the wednesday issue that we had when we were over at my sister's house. And right now I am seriously looking and doing my research on how to get in safe for myself and for my family. I want to be able to see my grandkids still and be able to live longer to be with my family... and perhaps even visit different places and meet some awesome people. And having said that, I saw some information about Fastin and how it helps people in loosing their weight. I really need to get in shape and take care of my health.

You see this is how it all started. Monday we head out early morning and drove to memphis to pick up the truck. We drove for about 7 hours...well my husband drove for a little less than 7 hours. So when we got there, him and his stepmother talk for while like nothing happened last five years ago... I may have to write the story about him and his family later on.. if I can find some time. That's going to be interesting... but anyway, after the brief conversation and hi and hellos, they headed their way back to Kentucky and we stop by to grab something to eat. By this time it was around 5 in the afternoon already and when we finished up, it was around 6 to 6:30. To make the story short, we drove for a couple of hours... stopping from time to time for it was my first time driving that far with my daughter. My husband was driving the truck so I have to drive with my daugther in the trailblazer.

We made it home Tuesday morning... and comes Wednesday...the dreaded wednesday... we headed to my sister's house so my husband can install the surround system in their house. We stop by Home Depot to pick up some supplies and when we were outside heading to the truck it hit me.. stomach pain and I was sweating cold... I really need to go to the bathroom. It was one of those thing that hit you all of a sudden and you just have to go. I have to endure the 15-20 minutes trip to my sister house... I feel like my husband was trying so slow that I can't even breath anymore. When we got to the house, first stop was the bathroom... I was puking and this time sweating more .... colder... my head is started to really hurt and my hands are feeling tingly...soon my legs started to feel tingly as well... this time I already took off some of my clothes for I was feeling really hot but my sweat was really cold. As the tingly sensation keeps getting closer to my shoulder I notice that my hands and legs are starting to cramp up.... getting frozen.. this time I called in my husband in the bathroom to help me... I was in a panicked mood already... but was still able to manage to tell my husband what to do... I keep telling him to massage my arm and hands so I can move them... but eventhough I know he was doing it I can't feel a thing.

My fingers were all frozen... frozen in such a way that it was position like I was trying to scratch somebody... same thing was happening to my toes and legs. I can't move them! By now my speech started to slur. I was thinking that my brain is not getting enough oxygen anymore.. we have to act fast if I want to live. I though I was having a heart attack.. maybe high blood... or sezure.. that can't be... I don't have any of those. This time, I was actually waiting for flashback of my life right before my eyes. But nothing... I was alert.. thnak God. I was still able to manage to tell my husband to call 911 and calm my daughter.. poor thing... she was crying...

No matter how my husband massage my arms and fingers... nothing is helping... the cramps was almost to my shoulder and the longer we wait I feel like I am not going to make it... I keep trying to calm myself down... hoping it will unfreeze my legs, toes, fingers and arms... nothing... finally when the paramedics came... it gives me that hope that I might be able to make it. And miracles do happen... Everything was normal when the paramedics left.. well let me take that back... my arms were still shaking when they left... I told them that I don't need to go to the hospital and that I just needed to rest. I did took a lot of rest for that night my arms and legs were sore... and I feel so weak...

Until now we have no idea of what was the cause of it. I am planning of seeing a doctor hopefully next week to make sure that it's not going to happen again. Comes thursday morning my husband was asking me what is our plan... just in case something happens again. Before I use to worry about having some asthma attack... but now that I had that frozen... cramps.. tingly thing.. I can honestly say that weird things happens to people...